when you don’t have the only thing you desire
when you know you can never have it
when you know you can never hope to have it
when you know you can never hope to hope to have it (and so on)
when you are willing to exchange everything you have for it, but no-one cares
when you live in suspended reality, but the bubble breaks
when you don’t care what you achieve
when all you achieved does not make up for what you want most
when even dreams are nightmares
when you are tired of pretending
when you are tired of running away
when you are out of ideas to keep your thoughts occupied
What the heck! I need to crib 😦
I have kept so much to myself that this blog is the only place I can crib
What have I?
A budding PhD thesis, thats all.
Heres hoping that some dreams come true!!
(Not that I should complain too much. I am proud of what I achieved so far. I am proud of getting into IIT. I am proud of my career choice. I love ‘research’. I am in my dream university. )
(but somethings are never meant to be;
but you keep wondering what-if, if-only, why????)