…is in my genes.

Take this blog…Neglected for so long because there is always a tomorrow.

Calling friends up is a lost cause because I always wait for 5 more minutes till it gets really late.

Take today at work: I had taken some pains in writing a script that automated a huge chunk of the work that I had to do, and yet, at the end of the day, I finished only about an hour’s worth of work.  My attention span is in the order of seconds. Every minute I need to take a break. The worst part was, as I was driving back, I had no idea how the time went in the office today. I just knew that I ran 10 scenarios and each one takes about 5 minutes to setup and execute.

Last few weeks, I have taken it to another level altogether. I just do nothing. Nothing, except for refreshing Twitter, Facebook and Google Reader. There are about 5-6 movies that I have left unfinished after starting. I don’t even want to start reading “The Good Earth”, even after really liking the first 30 or 40 pages of the book, for the fear that I may get sucked into reading it for hours together. I haven’t seen a soccer game or a Tennis game entirely, switching channels aimlessly every minute or so. I am hardly going into the kitchen, but am cooking out of necessity (the office mess sucks!)

All I seem to want is to do nothing. I sit at office, waiting for 4.45 so that I can get back home and do nothing.

When I knew that I would be coming to Tonawanda for the summer, I had planned so many trips to increase the states I have visited count, but it has been a month since I came here, and I have not been to Buffalo downtown, hardly 8-10 miles from where I stay.

I want to get out of this rut, but don’t know how. 😦

  1. #1 by Vinay on June 28, 2010 - 9:57 pm

    He he… procrastination is in the genes of every Grad student. Me too procrastinated a lot of things. And when I look back, I feel I could have done a lot more, if I had planned earlier!! Things like trekking, sight-seeing and even work could have been done in a better manner, if I had not procrastinated with planning.

    • #2 by Kaushik on June 28, 2010 - 10:01 pm

      The Planning is all right…it is the execution that lacks…The lack of execution is what made me write this today. I was struggling to find the error in my script last friday and at 8.05 today morning, I found it and by 10, I had finished running the scripts, collecting the data etc etc. And then I took 5 minutes to plan the next thing to do. And then did nothing the rest of the day. Suddenly it was 5 and time to leave.

  2. #3 by Pavi Prabakaran on June 28, 2010 - 9:58 pm

    I kind of feel, an India trip is due for you. I mean I am in India for a visit after 2.5 years now and for about the last 2 years I have been feeling exacty how you have been feeling.

    • #4 by Kaushik on June 28, 2010 - 10:02 pm

      Wow! You went to India after 2.5 years! I have been here 2.5 years and I have been to India three times already, the last trip being less than a month old 🙂

  3. #5 by Titaxy on June 28, 2010 - 11:03 pm

    Sigh. I go through this phase too. You just have to figure out a way to pull yourself out of it. Change the routine, go out in the evening – walk, drive, or whatever, push yourself to continue the book, get some work done etc. You will come out of it, I’m sure. 🙂 Good luck.

  4. #6 by viswajithkn on June 29, 2010 - 12:49 am

    vettiness is the best part of summer.

  5. #7 by sachita on July 5, 2010 - 4:32 pm

    umm.. 🙂 as a life long sufferer, i can say this, with our last minute cramming talent even with procrastination we will still pull through but it hurts utilizing our complete potential and five years later when i look back it really hurts. dont know if you are really in that category but have a feeling you are and hope you buck up before i do.

  6. #8 by Sk on July 9, 2010 - 8:16 am

    Planning is not enough, what about deadlines and check points?
    Having a bigger picture in mind will help.
    What do you want to achieve in life? Write them down and then break them down to action items.

    Anyway I hve been where you are, now seriously I regret not having done so many things I could have.
    Check out the book -the power of focus.

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